Truthful Tuesday

Instead of "Truthful Tuesday" I think I'm going to call this "I fucked up Tuesday." So - Yesterday is what you would call a bad day. I was exhausted at work and didn't feel well. I decided to come home after work to either lay down or workout at home. Instead I went to the dollar general and bought mac and cheese and peanut butter cups. I ate the whole box and half the bag of cups. This is even hard for me to type because I am so ashamed of my binge. I haven't binged in so long. Even when I have eaten an unhealthy item, I have been able to control myself and not eat a ton of it. Well - not this time! After I ate, I was very aware of the difference I felt. I felt like my stomach was extended and I couldn't breath. I felt nauseous and sad. I even started to cry, asking myself why I do this. Since Friday's burger and alcohol fest, I have been off course. Even today, after my horrible night, I still forgot to pack my lunch and got a burger from the cafeteria. I feel more sluggish and depressed when I eat shitty. Luckily I have a 90 minute Zumba class tonight - Hopefully that will snap me back into a routine!