Sum it Up Sunday!

Not a good week - where is my motivation?  What motivates you?  New clothes, dating, freedom?

Snap Shot Saturday

Today I went kayaking.  Jaime and I are not naturals!

Fashion Friday

Nothing fashionable about today unless sweats are fashionable.  My parents helped me put together my desk (since I'm back at school)  It took 3 of us 4 hours to put together an ikea desk....how sad is that!??!!?

Thankful Thursday

Being thankful this week is hard since I am a ball of negative energy.  I am thankful just to be alive and healthy, after years of being mean to my body. 

Whiny Wednesday

I have strep throat....glad I finally went to the doctor....explains why I have felt so craptastic

Truthful Tuesday

Today was bad

Not bad with my diet/exercise, but mentally bad.  I can feel my depression cycling back and I know that is why things have been so hard for me.  I feel like I am in a rut - professionally and romantically.  All around I feel bored in my life.  I need a change, and FAST!

Hey Guys - Question?!

Whats your favorite beginner level yoga DVD?

Mmmmmmmmmm Monday

So today I decided to take a suggestion I heard at a weight watchers meeting - A lady there said she tends to eat more veggies and fruits if they are already cut up.  So I bought  containers and food and started to prepare.  I went to Trader Joes with my mama and I bought organic fruits and veggies.  I then came home, cleaned it and cut it up.  I am ready for some healthy snacking!

Snapshot Sunday

I have decided to make Sundays a picture day!  Maybe this will force me to take more pictures each week.  Because I didnt take anymore new pictures this week, I will add an oldie but a goodie that sums up how I am feeling - frustrated with myself!

Sweet Sweet Saturday

Today we finally cleaned my carpets at my house.  My parents came over and we used the rug doctor.  I wish hardwood wasn't so expensive.  It is my new goal to make that happen in the next 5 years.  The carpet gets so dirty at my house cause its so light.  Blah.

So in the middle of writing this blog, something gave me the urge to look at old pictures.  I went all the way back to 9th grade.  I was so thin, even through college.  Its so weird because I remember thinking I was so fat!  I can't believe how tiny I was and how much I didn't appreciate it.  Errrr!

Fashion Friday

So its 9 million degrees and humid out.  This is a very bad time of the year for us fatties!  We are so hot and sweaty and we feel even more unattractive.  Blah.  When the weather gets like this I like to wear long, loose dresses.  You know what I hate more than having a sweaty body, is having a sweaty face.  This effs up your makeup really quick!  I have clear eyebrows so I have to draw mine on and after a sweaty day I'll look in the mirror and I'll only have like 1/4 of 1 eyebrow left - embarrassing! 

Thankful Thursday

I am thankful for my new health coach, Holly Mays.  We get a health coach the whole year we are in this program and mine just happens to be awesome!  She is such an inspiration.  She has used food to heal some serious hormonal problems she has had for 7 years (that no doctor understood).  I am pumped to learn from her!

Wowsa Wednesday

So I am really loving this health coach program I am in.  The classes are really making me look at myself and analyze my own life.  The program is based on what they call primary foods - relationships, career, spirituality and physical activity.  They say that the food you put in your mouth is secondary and in direct relation to your primary foods.  Something really resonated with me during my lesson Monday.  The creator talked about how people are diagnosed with binge disorder (me), when in essence they are just lacking primary food.  He talked about how some people come home and do not have a meaningful relationship that they crave, so they fill the void by binging.  When I think about it, I did start to gain my weight in college after a bad breakup, and it has gone up and up since.  I only binge when I am home alone.  This maybe a trigger.

Each person going through this program has a journal they fill out everyday with different activities.  My activity today was to analyze my "circle of life."  I was to put a dot on each aspect of my life.  The closer the dot to the outside of the circle, the happier I am.  The closer the dot to the middle of the circle, the more help I need.  After making my dots, I connected them.  I'll tell ya, my circle is looking pretty sad.  The areas that need attention are: finances, career, health, physical activity, home cooking and spirituality.  Here is my circle:

 

We then had to take our circle and come up with wishes:

 

Very interesting stuff - totally into it!

Side note - 

I don't think I post enough pictures on my blog that aren't weight related to here goes!

Here is my beautiful friend Dana at her wedding reception!

Me and my bestie, Andrea, out after the wedding

 Girls night out!

 

Temptation Tuesday

So today I am sick and very sore from my workout yesterday.  I barely made it through work without putting my head down on my desk.  I am pretty sure I have a fever right now since my AC is on/ a fan is blowing on me and I am still sweating.  All I wanted all day was a pizza and a bed.  Instead I did a small workout when I got home and I also ate well (tuna over spinach, yogurt, granola bar, smart one, apple, carrots) (All good).

So I am pretty over my job and I would love to be my own boss someday.  So since I am doing this health coaching program, this dream could possibly become a reality.  I need to remind myself that every time I put pizza in my mouth and skip a workout, I am in a sense keeping myself in a shitty job, farther away from my dreams of being a health coach and my own boss. 

Stop being tempted by shitty foods!

I'm Back!!

I'm back peeps!  I had my month long vacation from work, working out and dieting and now I'm ready to be serious again!  Tonight I did Turbo Fire and I went grocery shopping.  I am done effing around and I am ready to get back at it.  No more vaca for a long time so no more lame excuses!  How has everyone been?

Here is a beautiful post workout "excited" to be working out on a sleepy rainy Monday picture!

Monday Monday Monday

Monday is usually my day to plan and start fresh but I'm not feeling it today.  This might be because I am still on vacation and I know I am not strong enough to say no to all the temptations this week.  I am going to Philly for a few days this week to go to a museum, amusement park and visit a friend.  Also this week, I have a birthday party, bridal shower, bachelorette party and a wedding.  All of these events mean food and drinks.  I am an all or nothing person and I have been trying to beat this for a while!  It is so hard for me and I am thinking of just getting back to it all next Monday when I am back at work and back in a routine.  As a teacher in a nontraditional setting, I only get 4 weeks off a summer (not all at once).  I need the time off, dont get me wrong, but I am not good at it.  The second I am on vacation, I am sleeping and eating.  It is so weird and almost depressing!  I think if I was a traditional teacher with 2.5 months off in the summer I would become depressed and super fat!  I have 7 more days till I'm back at work and a normal Allison life.  My goal this week is not to gain weight.  Thats my only goal.  Wish me luck!  I'll be back Monday.  Have a good week and I promise to be a good little blogger again soon! 

Woopsie

So I have been missing - In the diet blog world this can only mean one thing - Food, Food, Food, Alcohol and more Food.  I only gained a pound which is some sort of miracle.  I had a really good time and I don't regret any of it.  I am back at it today and I will just move forward!  I do however feel like a slug and I am completely aware how bad I just was to my body.  Back to it!

How did you guys do with the holiday weekend?